Home now, is a sunny day.
It's time for me to express my feeling on my bloogie~
First of all,
my emotion is getting down and down and down. How I wish that he could read my blog and comprehend to what am I thinking now. But how? It's impossible he would know my half apple is him.
He's such a nice person I ever met in my life. (Indeed, lots of nice person in somewhere else too) I know, he only treat me as an ordinary friend. I could feel that although I'm not really good in reading people's mind. But, I can feel it! :(
Anyway, He brings to my mind that he's such a good conditions man. I wish to be as top as him, but my level was not there yet. I wish to get closer to him, it's not a piece of cake but hard nut to crack. I still couldn't read his mind yet only have a sight on his blog to know about his circumstance everyday.
And so, this makes me going nuts day by day. I have been ignorant of this stuffs in my mind for a week. How long could I stand for this again? No one could help me in this. Every single loves matter, it's our own obligation to make our own decisions. What to do? Encounter it one by one.
Sometimes, I could feel that he's trying to get repulsion on me. Is that I'm thinking too much or it's a truth? I could say that, this is a difficult feat for me to love such guy.
To be frank, this feeling comes true my mind all at sudden. At first sight I saw him, he makes me feels like he's my angel for me. On second thought, I wish to be his guardian as well. Merely, I know that he is younger than me. And so, I keep this feeling in the bottom of my heart for 4 months and never dug it out. Until the day I get closer with him, which is mean lately, he rouses this feeling up and it seems to be appeared more stronger day after day.
Will I stand for loving you or end up this feeling without anyone knowing? *A grieve feels in my heart...
Suspense.....
